I can finally say I’m back home after a while. Ipoh is and will forever will be my home. But Kuching is something else entirely.

Some things have changed. Some have not. The question I ask myself is what kind of person I am now? I so often realise I revert back to a different personality when I’m back here talking to my friends. You may not realize it but your personality ever so slightly changes when you are with different people or in different places.

When you are on holiday, you are on a tourist personality. When you are with your school friends, you revert to the personality from that era.

I find mine changes. When I’m back with my high school friends, I simply am who I was. The rough and loud guy. It was a simpler time. I didn’t have relationships to deal with. I didn’t have to think about my future. I didn’t have to fix a lot of situations.

The fact that I’m writing this post means my personality is not completely reverted. Being in a new environment overseas has given me new perspective on things and also to introspect more on a daily basis. New friends and a different stage of life has given birth to a  growing and different personality.

I think what I’m trying to say is I realise I have change a lot. So much so that I realize that my personality is slightly different with different people. It’s part of growing and it’s part of a paradigm shift in cultures.

I really do wonder what makes us change our personalities. Is it the fact that we just put on different faces for different people? Or is it that you are just naturally influenced by your environment. Or is it you share similar experiences which makes your output different ?

This holiday is making me going through my past, my roots, my experiences more so than the rest. I am hoping for the best and I hope this inspires you to ask yourself, why do I act the way I do in front of people?